professing hope
April 1, 2015

I have an app on my phone of daily devotionals. This one was too good not to share. The app is called DVO and you can download it here.

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The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those whose spirits are crushed.

Ps 34:18 (NLT)

“Have you ever fainted? Or been severely winded? Passed out? The feeling of going down and losing control of your responses and senses, watching the world slowly fade from colour to black… it’s frightening. You lose all sense of space and time, and you’re forced along by whatever has gripped you. All you are aware of is you and your pain.

Dark, confused, nauseated, tight chest, numb legs…

When you start to ‘come to’ and you realise that the blotchy shapes around you could be people, that the itch on your hand and shoulder could be someone else’s hands holding you, gently shaking you awake, making sure you’re breathing… another emotion floods you. There’s no word for it… but it’s a connectedness. “I am not alone and someone is helping me.” It doesn’t take away the pain, it doesn’t fix a broken leg, or heal a disease, but it strengthens the heart and cures the spirit.

A bond forms between people who experience each other on the brink of life. To know someone in their most vulnerable, stripped away moment is intimate and sacred. A silent knowing forms and there are no words to communicate what’s been shared.

Life takes interesting turns and none of us are immune to the sudden blows that assault our personhood, spirits and hearts. But in those moments, something beautiful takes place. Pain blinds us and takes our breath away, for a time we can’t see or hear or feel, but when we come to, we realise that God was there the whole time. And in this intimate, raw moment of uncertainty and pain and vulnerability, you look God square in the eye, feel His breath on your face, His embrace holding you up and His love filling your chest – rock solid.

As time goes by, the wound heals and you find your feet again. You may not ever wish your experience on someone else, but you wouldn’t change that moment with God for anything in the world. Beauty from ashes, life from death. A great paradox.

I don’t know why bad things happen, I don’t know why some prayers seem to get answered and others don’t… but I know that in your moment of heartache, God is there. All the questions in the world cannot drown out the love and grace He pours into that sacred moment. So hold it tight.

Broken hearted? Open your eyes, breathe… God is close.”